Love game~

Sunday, January 31, 2010

On the field of love game, anyone of us might be a loser; nevertheless, every single match consists of good player, lousy player, noble player and poor player. Let’s not judge myself, maybe I’m a lousy and poor attitude player which might not worth a chance to be in a game, but once I’m giving a chance to be on the field, I swear, I’ll do it perfectly. Some people have been playing a match of game for years, but he or she ended up being a loser, was it even worth for him or her to waste such a long time to gain lesson that not everyone will be the MVP of the match. A player doesn't make promise about future performances, that’s me. For no doubt, I can sacrifice everything to be the MVP, but I do not expect anything from the game, just to enjoy the game and hope that game would last as long as it never ends. Holding this belief will makes me feel better when I’m ordered to off the game.

I’m in a game now!

The game is still on, but none of the supporters see the future on this game, maybe I’m such a jerk, who has bad reputation, who doesn’t give a fuck during this moment. But you guys don’t know how hard I’ve been working this relationship out, how much I want him, its something cannot describe by a word or two. For those experiences I had, I will not cry for anyone of them, I was so unaffected by their leave, but not this time. Guess I found a good opponent. Wish me Good Luck?

I love you!

I love Chinese!

Sunday,January 24, 2010

The day before Thursday, I was swollen with pride that I can speak well-English among my friends, holding though that speaking English is more than enough to survive in this world, but now, I’m so proud with that I can speak and understand Mandarin. Well, for some people, they might not care about their mother’s language, because it doesn’t worth a piece of shit in their life, but to be honest, I feel so sad for a Chinese who couldn’t speak Mandarin. Other than that, study and understand China History is not a “want” for Chinese, it’s a “need” in order to be a Chinese. It wasn’t something silly or stupid to do that. For those who born with Chinese face and they wanted to copy and experience American’s lifestyle, is dumb and stupid. Chinese such a noble character and they do have moral integrity, and this doesn’t mean others don’t have. Just wonder, being Chinese is such that respectable, why Chinese in Malaysia so fascinated with European’s lifestyle. I do have a “gang” in college, it was 5 of us, 3 of ’em couldn’t even speak a word of Chinese and 2 of ‘em are Chinese, with an Indian. How sad! One day, I was reading Chinese’s newspaper, and they were like, “You know how to read Chinese?” Then I was like, “Of cause.” What they replied shocked me for seconds, “Aren’t you reading English newspaper just now? Why would you waste your time reading the Chinese’s one, isn’t that same thing? What a waste of time.” Haxxxxx!!!

Sometimes, I find that taking public transports isn’t that bad, last Thursday, I was so lucky. By the time I reached KTM station, there was a train waiting for me. Even though its kinda packed, but at least, I don’t have to wait half an hour and sweating like a cow. 2 ladies stand aside me; I was so into their conversation, Hahaha. They were talking bad about teachers nowadays!

Yerrrrr~~ Friday’s morning class, actually I had decided to sit alone at the left side, because I know that dude will sit there alone. So I was giving him a chance, but then, it just ended up with 0 conversations. Seriously I can tell that he’s PLU, but it just doesn’t much people will admit to the masses. I should start “invest” on something possible, instead of something that doesn’t give a shit to what I’d sacrificed for ‘em. Ahahaha~ He might not as hot as those people out there, but he has his own charming parts, which what I was looking for. Wish me good luck for this investment. xDDD

I'm Back~

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

There’re things happened for the few weeks behind, something awful and terrible, which my house and the space I used to hide my secret and spend time whenever I’m alone has totally burnt down by the fucking gay fire, actually it wouldn’t goes that bad if the fire fighter team manages to come on time and make it smooth during the securing process. But it just so sucks! To be honest, I wasn’t panic during that stupid incident happened but what the fire took and left for me just a disaster, it took away 90% of my stuffs, which probably worth 10k of ringgit, meanwhile, what it left is just an awaken alert that I still have the ability of sigh. Ish Ish!!!

Always wonder why am I so stupid? By the time smoke sneaked in from the ceiling, which must be an accident out there, those elders keep complaining why I am so stupid and no common knowledge. But, here to tell them, go fuck a dog. I’m 19 and I have never face any fire accident before, and you know what? It could all those lousy Indians fighting and burn up some shits which causes smoke, who knows? “Aiya… Should know that’s fire out there ma, how could you so silly about those common thing? Aikss, never mind la as long as you still alive, that what you should be lucky with.” Isn’t that annoying? =((

School started and things go on normally, have to stay at Taman Cheras with my brother; actually I’m still super duper free for the beginning of semester. But then, works have been given, just I’m so lazy to do it, Well, leave it first, “still got time” its always my personal philosophy. xDDD